Well, it has been way too long since I last wrote. This will pretty much just be an update on my life from my last post till now. It has been almost 2 years since my last post and that is WAY TOO LONG. So here goes!
Writing is something I really enjoy doing. I have to feel inspired to write so sometimes it takes time. If you have read my other stuff then you know its all pretty well thought through and I write from the heart. I haven't written in so long because I have been in a bad stage of my life. I chose to live for me for a while and that got me no where really... I would wake up and just feel empty inside. Well all of that is beginning to change. I will walk you through my life as it has happened in the past year and a half.
I was invited to go to Hawaii on a mission trip with my church. We went to Pahoa, Hawaii. It was my first trip out of the south so I was in for a treat. We were there to build a church for a local church there. We showed up to a concrete slab, 7 days later we left with most of the bracing put on the roof. There were 10 of us and we worked our butts off. People there were simply amazed at how fast we got everything done. One of the days we went into the city to invite people to church that weekend. We meet a lot of people. Most of them only cared about surfing, or just living their lives for themselves. The businesses actually closed during high tide because most everyone there surfed. It was crazy! Some of the people we met there in the city said things that blew my mind. This one guy said, "Son you're beating a dead horse." I just couldn't wrap my head around the lack of care for Jesus and all he has done for us. There is a lot more info. You're welcome to add me on Facebook and ask questions if you'd like.
After Hawaii, I got home and felt like I was on top of the world. Then something happened and I lost that high. I feel away from God like I never thought I would. I began questioning things I never thought I would. I became a person I never thought I could be. The person is a person that made a conscience decision against God. I would have never thought I could do that but I did. Then things only got worse. I felt worse day by day and continued to walk away. I knew that the way to get my joy back would be to turn back to God but I didn't care. After time I finally decided to go back and give my all to God. During this time I had another chance come up and I took it.
This chance was to go to Nome, Alaska to build a small cabin for a youth camp. The camp site was literally on the Bering Straight. It was cold and lots of wind. The was an evil presence there that I wouldn't understand until later. As we got there we went through an orientation of sorts. We were told about the extremely high suicide rate, alcoholism, and incest that is there on a daily basis. Nome is so remote, the only way there is by boat or plane. We heard that during the orientation but we didn't really believe it until I saw a girl about 13 or 14 fishing in the Bering Straight. She was fishing and she pulled her sun glasses off her face and I saw the bruises. That is when the story became a reality. It blew me away... Well I get back home and it was just so hard to deal with for a while. I didn't like leaving and not being able to do anything about it. But I came back, faced the hardest thing I have ever faced with one of my closest friends. That is a story for another day.
After going to Alaska and coming back I still hadn't found the joy I once had, and if I am being honest I'm not sure I have found it yet. I know that God is real and he very much so cares about me. I have prayed so hard for a few things to happen. 3 specific ones, and God has blessed me with 2 of the 3. #3 could be very soon but we will see how everything plays out. I pray this is #3, then I am on my way to having everything from life I want. This is about all I can think of for now. Facebook me, tweet me, or what ever. I'd love to talk to you.
Thanks for reading, I hope you look forward to my future posts and I hope my past posts have impacted your life in a BIG way. Thanks again!
Josh
Writing is something I really enjoy doing. I have to feel inspired to write so sometimes it takes time. If you have read my other stuff then you know its all pretty well thought through and I write from the heart. I haven't written in so long because I have been in a bad stage of my life. I chose to live for me for a while and that got me no where really... I would wake up and just feel empty inside. Well all of that is beginning to change. I will walk you through my life as it has happened in the past year and a half.
I was invited to go to Hawaii on a mission trip with my church. We went to Pahoa, Hawaii. It was my first trip out of the south so I was in for a treat. We were there to build a church for a local church there. We showed up to a concrete slab, 7 days later we left with most of the bracing put on the roof. There were 10 of us and we worked our butts off. People there were simply amazed at how fast we got everything done. One of the days we went into the city to invite people to church that weekend. We meet a lot of people. Most of them only cared about surfing, or just living their lives for themselves. The businesses actually closed during high tide because most everyone there surfed. It was crazy! Some of the people we met there in the city said things that blew my mind. This one guy said, "Son you're beating a dead horse." I just couldn't wrap my head around the lack of care for Jesus and all he has done for us. There is a lot more info. You're welcome to add me on Facebook and ask questions if you'd like.
After Hawaii, I got home and felt like I was on top of the world. Then something happened and I lost that high. I feel away from God like I never thought I would. I began questioning things I never thought I would. I became a person I never thought I could be. The person is a person that made a conscience decision against God. I would have never thought I could do that but I did. Then things only got worse. I felt worse day by day and continued to walk away. I knew that the way to get my joy back would be to turn back to God but I didn't care. After time I finally decided to go back and give my all to God. During this time I had another chance come up and I took it.
This chance was to go to Nome, Alaska to build a small cabin for a youth camp. The camp site was literally on the Bering Straight. It was cold and lots of wind. The was an evil presence there that I wouldn't understand until later. As we got there we went through an orientation of sorts. We were told about the extremely high suicide rate, alcoholism, and incest that is there on a daily basis. Nome is so remote, the only way there is by boat or plane. We heard that during the orientation but we didn't really believe it until I saw a girl about 13 or 14 fishing in the Bering Straight. She was fishing and she pulled her sun glasses off her face and I saw the bruises. That is when the story became a reality. It blew me away... Well I get back home and it was just so hard to deal with for a while. I didn't like leaving and not being able to do anything about it. But I came back, faced the hardest thing I have ever faced with one of my closest friends. That is a story for another day.
After going to Alaska and coming back I still hadn't found the joy I once had, and if I am being honest I'm not sure I have found it yet. I know that God is real and he very much so cares about me. I have prayed so hard for a few things to happen. 3 specific ones, and God has blessed me with 2 of the 3. #3 could be very soon but we will see how everything plays out. I pray this is #3, then I am on my way to having everything from life I want. This is about all I can think of for now. Facebook me, tweet me, or what ever. I'd love to talk to you.
Thanks for reading, I hope you look forward to my future posts and I hope my past posts have impacted your life in a BIG way. Thanks again!
Josh
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